Pt 2... not going to happen

To be continued... I guess not. Part 2 of my cycle with the doctor and IUI did not happen. I really don't know how it came to be like this.

Here are my thoughts:

Last week when I had the HSG test done, it was quite painful. Having that pain and cramping kinda 'ruined' the whole experience. The test was done on day 12 of the cycle. The ovulation cycle is around day 12 to 16. Having the test done on day 12 made me not want to have intercourse on days 12 and 13. Which elimates two days out of our window. Also on these two days, I did not take ovulation tests in the mornings. Not sure what was going on in my head, it just slipped my mind. So I started taking the tests and they all came back with a slight positive line, with no real distinct dark expressive line. So, I just let it go. We did have intercourse a few time during this cycle (like always), but I had planned on going back to the doc for an IUI. So... we shall see what happens.

I guess now I sort of understand about taking a break. I can see how I was so obsessed with it, and now I can let it go some. It's very strange that I feel a bit more relaxed about this and not so overwhelmed.

On a side note, we took the first steps yesterday by mailing out our first adoption application to the state foster/adoption service. There is an orientation on November 15th that I will attend. Apparently, they start training classes soon that we may be eligible to attend. It should be interesting, exciting, and nerve racking at the same time. I do not know much about the adoption process in regards to the state program. I am hoping that we can be 'picky' and select a newborn to age 2 or 3. I know that it may be a long wait with many ups and downs. It may be something that won't even happen at all. It would be amazing to adopt a young child and then also have one of my own. Oh life....